Babe, you got this.

I've been feeling pretty down lately. It's like everything is just catching up on me and I can't juggle my responsibilities anymore. When I try to look for support or for some sort of comfort, the people I expected to be there for me turn out to cause me more misery. I feel so miserable. Day by day, I wake up hoping things might get better, but it doesn't.

I try to stay positive and I try to keep up but it's just not working. I've lost interest in working because I know all the money will go to someone else anyway. I find it hard to understand why I'm paying rent in my family's house. I'd feel so much better paying rent to a stranger. So, basically, I'm not sure if my family wants to help me out or wants to bury me deeper into more debt. 

When I turn to the person I thought I can talk to, he's not available. Like I'm some inconvenience he can't find time for. As if his schedule was that of a CEO that he can't find time to remember me. 

It's frustrating what I got myself into. If I remember correctly, I stood up for him that's why I'm in this rut in the first place. A decision I made a year ago, fuck. Me and my stupidity. 

But you know what, I got this. Hell, it would have been awesome to hear it from someone else. But, screw everything else. I got this. 

And right now, I can't help myself thinking, 'if you weren't around during my down times, you don't deserve to be part of my high times'.

Babe, you got this.